CASSANDRRRRAAA

Monday, February 06, 2006 / 7:08:00 PM

hmm. ever felt so lostand down in your life beforr? dunno y,i m havin tis feelin tat i got nowhere to go,(althou i'm at home), living aimlessly in my life, what am i thinkin and worst whether i'm a human. okhays. get this clear. i'm not mad or sth. if u feel lik i'm one of it and writin craps, pls, go away. it's my blog. i write wat i want. i've been wonderin today after my tuition. i stared at e com blankly, dunno wat to do next. i thought of bloggin but... watt shall i blog. anw, i'm here. life is abt ups and down. so dun be surprise tat e owaes-is-smiling cassandra is feelin down now. she too is a human. u noe? o.. mayb i'm not. ok. craps. hmm. okies. i blog abt wat i did today first. wen to sch as usual. borin lessons. but great, ms tan isn't here. tat means i dun hav test. yupps. had a maths test. din even studied at all. bound to fail. den after sch wen to mos wif sheryl. i dunno y my appetitide is so big these few days. will get a shock if u all noe. i'm a girl u noe? den got tuition n ''tink'', i'm here. ok. it's craps. but as i sae, if u're not interested, pls go away. next, i been wonderin jus now. wat r frens? do dey cheer u up wen u're sad? hug u wen u nid comfort? or jus stay quietly beside u and watch u cry? hmm. dunno y. i'm so unfeelin. i dunno y i nvr get upset over frens. issit becus i've learn to protect myself since i noe tat my sis got bullied n my frens betrayed mi beforr? i dunno y. i oso thinks tat if i bullied other ppl, it is better tat anyone bullyin me? m i wrong to think tat way. i nvr ever told my mum abt anything tat bad happens to me. i m afraid tat my mum will get worry. i hav no one to turn to. if one day., i tell my frens abt it, dey will think tat, omg. cassandra is so.... i reali dunno wat to do. mayb i'll jus hav to accept tat i m a loner. to blog abt feelings is a tough thing for mi to do. i nvr expected me to blog it here. hmm. oso, i learnt to cherish frens but i jus dun trust dem. mayb i dun trust ppl easily. i'm scared tatdey break my trust. let me ask u sth. would u mind if yr fren is a prositute or wateva-it-is-spell? what r frens? kept thinkin n thinkin. ok. tis is a crappy blog u if think it is.